I think I might have mentioned that I’ve only ever been truly in love with two people. Maybe. I don’t know. It doesn’t really matter. I only want to harp on one for a quick second here, before I explain my upcoming prolonged absence. It all ties together, don’t worry.
This last human (let’s call him Daniel Plainview) and I have a bit of a history. We met long before the ex-husband and I met each other, and had a bit of a fairy tale romance. Shortly after I split with the ex, Danny P. and I reconnected. It didn’t take long for us to become very close. It confirmed that tiny gut feeling that I had all along- I loved this guy.
Long story short, Daniel and I parted ways in a rather volatile (so many feels!) way, but attempted to stay friends because I’m a masochist. Recently, he threw some salt into a very open wound, and we had to have a long conversation about things. In this conversation, he mansplained to me how I should just “move on without him” and that was that.
It’s just that easy, friends! Just move on! Just forget everything! SO EASY EVERYONE’S DOIN’ IT!
Anyway, really the point of this post is to backhandedly thank him for saying that. I was recently given the opportunity to go to Burning Man, an incredible experiment in community, art, and music. Trust me, this is not something I would have ever chosen to do by myself, but my friends convinced me that it was what I needed right now. Two weeks disconnected from reality, spent with people who are accepting, etc. Sounds pretty good, right?
At first, I was all “this is just a bunch of hippies in the desert burning stuff and wearing costumes and glitter and it’s hot”, but after this conversation I’d just had, I started to come around. I started actually researching the event and came across their ten principles:
Radical Inclusion, Gifting, Decommodification, Radical Self-Reliance, Radical Self-Expression, Communal Effort, Civic Responsibility, Participation, Immediacy.
So, just looking at those, I can count four principles that I need to seriously work on in my life. I started looking at the trip as a way to turn off and reset my mind. A way to refocus my energy on not being so caught up in what other people want and need from me, but what I need and want for myself. And as my fellow cohort, M, says: MANIFEST!
I’m a total convert. I’m going to give myself over to experiencing the experience, I’m going to talk to anyone and everyone, I’m going to do things that make me uncomfortable in real life, and I’m going to let all this bullshit go in the Temple and rejoice when they burn the fucker down. It’s going to be seven days of magical catharsis. Bring it on, BRC.
We’re leaving tomorrow morning. My friends rented an RV, and we will be taking our time getting out to Nevada. I’ve picked out some horrible roadside attractions for us to see, and I guess we might see that dead guy mountain or something. I’m looking forward to this. I’ll try to post from the road if I can, but otherwise, this is me signing off for the next two weeks. Wish me luck- this place is hot as balls.
And to Mr. Plainfield, a tip of my hat: